I'm trying really hard to find a focus again. Not necessarily a focus on one specific interest or idea but just focus in general. As much as Monday rolls around and I don't feel rested when I'm working on side projects I'm not a big fan of the alternative.

I really enjoy playing video games but I feel like a I've fallen in to a time vortex every time I've got a controller in my hand for more than a half hour. Hours can go by, bed time can be hours gone and I'm still going. Work (job type work) suffers because it takes me forever to get to sleep and then out of bed. I miss the mornings with my family on the weekends. My side projects get ignored for another night. As much as I enjoy that time it's gone and I regret that it's gone. I also find the same happens when I'm randomly browsing the Internet.

Movies and TV shows are a bit better, provided I actually enjoy them. At least they relate to my side projects and personal interests. As long as I'm not just sitting in front of the TV watching Simpsons reruns because it's easy.

So, I'm trying to find focus again. Part of that has been following up on my correspondence. I was tragically behind. I had a couple of scripts to give notes on, an audition to edit and post, and some others projects to figure out when and if I'd be needed on set to help.

The other side has been picking up those interests, I guess one could call them hobbies, and dusting them off. One of my biggest problems has been a very narrow band focus. I pick one little interest and I chased fanatically for two to six weeks. I learn a few things, I pick up so stuff, and then I summarily drop whatever I was doing and chase something else. OOOOH, SHINY!

Instead I'm going to work on projects concurrently instead of consecutively. This way I don't burn out and I don't get bored. I can take a couple days away if I need to while I'm focusing on something else but it's always there, in the forefront.

david shute - Jan 18, 2010 at 1:36 AM